She always loved Toronto in the dead of winter. Some would complain about the cold, and all the snow and ice that would constantly become an inconvenience and an annoyance to others but she loved all of it. Maybe because it was always an excuse for him to be there to hold her and keep her warm at night when they both knew that all she really wanted was to be held.
The air outside was a brisk negative two degrees and she sat at her window, watching the children play in the snow in the little park across the road from her building. Her tiny body wrapped up in a blanket and a cup of her favorite tea in hand. The blanket was coated in his scent from the last time he was in her bed, the last time they made love to one another.
She remembered that night perfectly, the way he held her, the intensity of their lust for one another in that very moment. The way he brought her body to such a height that it seemed unreal, the way he tended to her every want and need. He could read her body and knew what she wanted and needed at every instance. The way he held her so close when they tired and spoke sweetly into her ear making her calm and giggle as he wrapped the blanket around their bodies.
What Nicki wished that she could forget was what transpired that very morning. Fear had overtaken her and the reality of what they had done the night before settled into her. She had just made love with her best friend, and now here she laid in his arms waiting for him wake up and leave her. She knew deep down that he didn’t mean to hurt her by leaving but she knew how busy he was and this was something she thought that neither of them were ready for.
Once he had awoken, Nicki felt him kiss her cheek and just as expected he raised from the bed and pulled on his boxers. She couldn’t even remember most of their argument because she was so angered and upset but from what she could remember, she said something along the lines of I hate you, never come back.
The second those words left her mouth she wished she could take them back but instead she marched herself into her bathroom and slammed the door shut before starting her shower. Half of her wanted for him be there waiting for her when she opened the door but the other half was hoping that she wouldn’t see him anywhere in the apartment.
Just as she hoped, he was gone. But that was over two months ago, and now here she sat alone, waiting to see one of his cars pull up, or to hear his knock at her door everyday.
As the days grew longer and colder, Nicki regretted her mistake more and more. The bed was so cold without him there to keep her warm, and this made her realize how much she needed him in her life. Everything seemed to be right but it all was just empty.
Nicki jumped at someone knocking at the door and she walked over to answer hoping that it was who she was longing to see but instead it was his friend. She pulled the door open and greeted him with a weak smile.
“Hi Noah,” she greeted and he smiled at her.
“Hi Nicki, may I come in?” He asked and she nodded before stepping aside. A midst all the commotion of the situation, 40 felt as though he was torn on both sides of the argument.
On one hand it would be easy to side with a man who had been like his brother since they were kids and on the other hand he still sympathized with Nicki because everyone knew how she was about things like this and she was like a sister to him. He felt like a kid stuck in the middle of a parents argument, but chose to just be neutral in the whole situation.
“What brings you here?” she asked and he looked down at her.
“I came to check up on you, y’know see how you were doing since we haven’t really spoken in awhile.” 40 explained.
“I’m fine I guess, what about yourself, I remember Courtne telling me you had fallen again?” She asked politely and he shrugged.
“I’m good, feel alot better but she totally over reacted.” 40 said and Nicki tilted her head to the side and thought of Courtne. Nicki knew that Courtne loved 40 more than anyone and her worrying was just her way of showing that love.
“Now you know when you fall it’s serious, and Courtne loves you, she doesn’t want to lose you.” She said solemnly.
“Yeah I know,” 40 said. “I just wish she wouldn’t worry so much, it’s not good for her y’know.” He finished and they fell silent. Nicki had a question burning in her skull and knew that this was her chance to ask.
“Does he even miss me?” she asked suddenly and 40 let out a sigh. It was something he knew she would ask and Nicki knew 40 wouldn’t lie when answering.
“Honestly, I have no idea. You know how he is, he deals with everything differently and instead of being like any other normal person and mopping the same way every time, he does everything off of impulse. The only person who can actually answer that question is him, has he even tried to talk to you?”
“No, I would call but he wouldn’t pick up, he won’t return my text messages either so I just gave up and decided that he would come back in his own time. That is if he ever does.”
“Nic, trust me he’ll come back to you. If there is one thing I know for sure is that he loves you more than anything in the world and would trade his life for you. Just give him more time, what did you even say to him to make him like this?” 40 asked and Nicki took a breath before explaining the entire situation to him.
40 listened attentively and now that he was getting her side of things, he couldn’t help but feel conflicted. But anyone could see that Nicki was the one in the wrong and that she should be the one to apologize but still give all the space needed.
After talking for a couple minutes longer, 40 looked at the clock and realized that he had leave. Nicki walked him to the door and just before he left, she asked him to tell Drake that she missed him and that she wanted him to come back to her. 40 agreed before hugging her goodbye and walking away from the door.
Nicki watched him get into the elevator and waved before shutting her door. She walked back across the apartment, before re wrapping herself in the blanket and getting back on the window seat. It only took about five minutes before she saw 40 drive away from the building. She let out a sigh and went back to watching the happy children play in the snow.
Days went on and Nicki felt the toll of her actions get heavier and heavier. Especially now, since the holidays were right around the corner. Drake would always keep her entertained especially since she couldn’t be with her family. She sent them all to Trinidad but she couldn’t go because of her work schedule, even with all of Micaiah’s pleading she couldn’t switch anything around in her favor.
Drake would always invite Nicki spend time with him and his family, whether it be in Toronto or in Memphis, he would always include her. She sighed, and rolled onto her back so she could stare up at the ceiling.
The sheets were so cold it was almost unbearable. Nicki pulled Monty into her arms and cuddled with him, pretending that it was Drake lazily holding her.
“Why can’t I ever think before I speak?” She asked aloud.
“I don’t know but if you did we wouldn’t get into so much trouble all the time.” A deep voice said from behind her and Nicki sprang out of the bed.
“AUBREY!” She yelled and wrapped her arms tightly around him. She stood on her tippy toes and buried her face in his neck. Drake could feel the wetness of her tears on his skin and Nicki pulled away looking up at him when she noticed that he hadn’t hugged her back. She cupped his cheek in her hand. “You still hate me don’t you?” She asked and he sighed before taking her hand off his face.
“Onika,” he began but she stepped away from him.
“No you still do, what did you come here to tell me that you never wanted to see me again or something?” She asked and he rolled his eyes.
“Can you stop being overly dramatic for a second and let me talk?” He snapped annoyed and Nicki jumped. “Sit down.” He said and Nicki walked over to the bed and sat cross legged with Monty in her arms as a source of comfort.
Drake studied her, she looked almost lost. “Onika look at me.” He said and her big brown eyes peered up at him. Her bottom lip got caught under her teeth and she was scared of what he would say next. He sighed, “what you said was hurtful but I took in your words, and you were right.”
“W-what?” Nicki stammered and looked at him. “No I wasn’t, I lied cause I was scared.” Nicki cried out and Drake looked at her. Did he still love her, of course he did with all his heart but the hurt she’d brought to him by saying what she had, never left him but also the fact that she was one to never lie to him. He could hear the truth in her words but that wouldn’t stop him from checking on her.
“Nicki you didn’t want me to come back,” he said.
“But you did and I promise you that I am sorry,” she pleaded.
“But that doesn’t take back what you said. I just came here to check on you before leaving for Memphis.” He said and Nicki looked at him.
“When do you leave?” She asked and he answered tomorrow. “Can you at least hold me one more time?” She asked and he agreed before changing and getting into the bed with her.
Her scent filled his nose and the feeling of her soft skin against his made gave him that ever missed feeling. He wrapped his arms around her but she pushed his arms upward making Drake furrow his brows. He knew exactly how Onika liked to be held so for her to move his hands in such a way made him suspicious.
He could hear her softly crying and reached under the large t-shirt with one hand as the other held her tiny wrists. She tried to get away from him but Drake was much stronger than she. He groped around her stomach and could feel the mass slowly increasing.
He let her go and she hid her face in her hands before letting out a small muffled cry.
“I’m sorry.” He heard her say but simply unwrapped his arms from around her, redressed and left in silence leaving her alone in the cold sheets of her bed.
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